Ugly

What does ugly mean?

Is ugly anything that's not young and smooth?

I've gained 20 pounds since the fall of 2013.

Don't medicate with food, my friends 

Very often I feel ugly

Not comfortable in my own skin

Maybe, though

Could it be possible?

That ugly is inside 

And not outside?

I wonder 

Perhaps ugly is what happens inside 

When we let fear, anger or despair win

And we lash out at each other 

Or hide 

When I do that

I know I feel ugly 

So is it a look or an action?

Is it inside or outside?

When I think about it

I feel tired and heavy 

And 

Ugly

And I want to take it all off

My body

All the crappy, nasty stuff

That we all all do to each other 

The daily fight

This false separateness

And I want to be one 

I want to take beauty, peace and joy

As my lover

I want us to wrap around each other 

And in the tender warmth of oneness 

The natural state 

Of pure love is revealed 

We are lifted, made better

Free!

And I think in this, there is no ugly 

I think that ugly 

Is something that happens to us

When we are blinded to the sheer beauty 

Within ourselves 

And in others

I think we can make this journey 

Easier or harder for one another 

We can ease or add to each other's burdens

I don't want to be ugly 

Anymore 

Or ever again 

I don't see any of you that way either 

Let's try and remember from now on

There's no ugly 

There's just

Us

The Door Is Open

I could never be disgusted

With what you are

Penis or vagina

Smooth or wrinkled 

Fit or fat

Whoever you like to fuck

Or make love to?
Or not

It's all good

Any race, color or creed

Religious, atheist, witch, whatever

I'm cool with that 

Your job, or lack of it

That's okay too
Your choices
Your stellar mistakes
Your victories

Your "weird" family
Your vices and addictions

Where you live 

Who you're with

What you've done

Or even what you're doing now

You're here, you're alive 

And, you're beautiful 

So am I 

Sometimes I'm brilliant 

Other times

I'm as dumb as a stump

So, teach me

Teach me YOU

And I will teach you ME

I want to know 

I've thought about it
And I think....

This is the only way 

Anything changes

We don't have to be clones

We don't have to believe the same way

We dont' have to

Anything 

Except be

And we can help each other 

Overly simple?

I've been called worse 

Anyway

The door is open 

28

Two souls

Patiently waited

Denied entry 

Rows of little pills

Years of the 28

Fear

And everyone's opinion

But her own 

So loud!

She allowed them to crowd out 

The call of her heart 

And so their journey together

Was not meant to be

Eventually she threw away 

The little paper in her wallet 

Containing their names 

Pretending she wasn't sad

That she didn't KNOW

Tucked the memory away

Deep down 

Today they came to visit

She who would have been mother 

Not with anger, or regret 

No

Today, the day that will be their birthday 

They came with a message of love 

Endless beautiful love

And Grace

There are so many paths

We have been at your side 

Watching, loving, and helping

You are ready now

Strong and powerful

Stepping into the light

You go rock this life, Mom

And we're going to do the same 

Know that we love you always 

And I you, my little ones

We will meet another way, mom 

Have no doubt 

We must go now 

Today is our birthday

And our family is waiting 

OK my angels

Thank you for this gift

You are in my heart always 

Every day is a new chance

Regardless of our yesterdays

Today is a new day 

A day to give birth 

And create ourselves 

And this world 

Anew

The Sun Is For Me?

Water droplets

Illuminated by morning sun

Pointed cat ears

Larger on the wall behind

The sun even shines on me

And I am always surprised

Supernova

Sometimes there's no comfort in familiarity 

Some nights you're just 

Naked

Not in a broken kind of a way 

But more in a re-membering way

Return to 

Everything you are

All that you have been

Lifetime over lifetime 

The need to leave the flesh behind 

And go home!

But you came here for a reason 

And it's just so strange 

The day to day

With it's rhythms

Survival and beyond 

And it all comes back to you

In these oddly ordinary moments 

You think you could just

Supernova 

While you're loading the dishwasher 

That world, that home

And this, this sweet aching

Incredibly delicious, heartbreaking walk

They're merging 

You hold conversations 

And you witness yourself

All the while 

The knowing

You keep going 

And it's so peculiar 

Nobody notices anything different 

And you marvel that they don't see

In perfect love

And perfect trust 

In the perfect irrelevance of time

You are

Full Moon High

I am maiden, mother and crone

Inclusive 

I am a child running wild 

Dancing with the wind 

Tree forts, good junk and lady's slippers

I am spirit, soaring free

Looking down upon this body

Now stilled

I am every soul I have ever loved

Ever known 

In every lifetime 

There is no separation 

In truth, there never was

I am the face of my mother 

Looking down into my cradle

I am the knowing spark

In Stevie cat's beautiful eyes

Telling the witch how it goes

I am the tinkling laughter in the treetops 

When the fae play in the breeze 

I am the ice age upon stone formations

Holding their story, their wisdom 

Unlocked in a single touch

I fly with the dragonfly 

I am the lily in the spring sun

I am every witch, in all times

I am winged, I am angel

I change shape 

I am timeless 

I am the moon and the stars

All are lover, brother, sister, friend, parent, teacher and sage to me. 

All are a gift. Unique precious, unforgettable, worth beyond all riches.

You are breathing, being, and doing. Right now. This is the good stuff, you know.