Crone Life

Random Sunday thoughts from my cozy chair.

This is a delicious stage of life. There is so much less energy sent in the direction of fitting in, what others may think, or what is expected by society. It isn’t so much about not caring. On the contrary, you care quite deeply. It’s simply that the need for people to know or to approve has left you.

You don’t feel a need to be constantly announcing and clarifying your intentions. You have learned the truth and freedom in allowing things to drift out of your circle that no longer make sense there.

Being right becomes far less important. You think in terms of "What’s the best way that is for the highest good?" 

You can let so many things go, releasing the need to control people or situations. You discover this gives you far more energy for the things you DO choose to interact with.

Your no and your yes have become far more precise, and you do not explain or excuse them. You know your boundaries are consciously chosen so that you can live a healthy life on every level.

You know that your spirit, and your soul are endless. It’s far easier to govern your thoughts, and only work with those you choose, allowing the rest to float away, unengaged. 

You can accept criticism without taking it personally. You take the lessons that are needed, and let the rest go. 

You are quite aware that your body is decaying, and this becomes a strange source of humor in your life. You both love your physical body for keeping it going every day, while being perplexed and chagrined at the rapid changes and adjustments you experience.

Beauty is something inside of you, and not something you owe the outside world. Whether you choose high fashion or leggings and a hoodie, it is done for your own comfort alone. 

That which is simple, warm and brings a smile are the best things. Complicated things must prove their worth quickly or you don’t give them a second look, simpler alternatives almost always exist. 

Your fierce loyalty goes only to those who have damned well earned it. Your inner circle is far smaller, and curated. You do not apologize for this. 

Of course you have days when you screw it up. We all do. Even when we’re doing our best. But you’ve also learned that some humility goes a long way, and you make amends and corrections, with gratitude for the opportunity to do so. You know that mistakes aren’t the end of the world, you’ve survived them before and you will again. 

Your heart breaks when those you love leave the physical realm, or when love seemingly ends, when all your choices seem horrible, or difficult things happen to wonderful people. And you discover that leaning into the heartbreak creates an open space within you to love differently and love more.

You are tiny and limited, and powerless. Yet you are endless, vast and powerful all at once. Magick isn’t a doing. It is your being. Connection isn’t "networking", it is breathing together with all things. 

Gratitude and humility partner with power in unexpected ways. 

#CroneLife

THIS IS THE WORK WE DO

Each day, you proclaim your sovereignty over the Earth, our Mother. You take and take from her, and destroy in the name of progress, money, power and to numb yourself. You kill our fellow creatures. 

You are surrounded by Grace, Truth, and lessons to help you, every day, yet you see and you hear nothing.

You harden your heart, and ignore the stirrings of Spirit within you. You twist yourself with every heinous, inhuman act and pretend they are holy. You try in vain to defile that which is beautiful, good, and natural. You believe the convenient lies.

You see people, and you say they are less than. You ignore their plight. You say they are not human. 

And we stand. Watching you. Working to heal our Mother. Working in our communities. Teaching our youth, because your ways WILL end with these young ones, make no mistake. Teaching them is our most holy, sacred task. 

And every day as you commit every crime imaginable against the Earth, her creatures, and your fellow human beings......

We will stand, together. We will endure the unimaginable pain of continuing to hold space for YOU, to continue to see your soul, and not your actions. To keep seeing YOU as a human being, even though every instinct says to turn from you and the horror that you have become.

We will do this. Every day. And the tide will turn.

Elizabeth Carrignant 

7/4/2018

New Creation

She’s gone now, the me I used to be. She was sweet. She also worked her fanny off getting me here, and endured a lot. I’m keeping the very best of her. Other things about her no longer work and that’s okay. Those things are not coming forward with me. That’s natural.

I feel like a new creation. Stronger, wiser, and no nonsense. Healthier, and at peace. Learning, always. I know where I end and others begin, whole within myself. There is no conflict within me.

I have had several people comment recently on the vibe they get from me now. Strong, no nonsense, loving, with an energy that says I’m a wonderful ally to have, but make certain not to cross the line. This makes me very glad, it was hard won getting here. 

I’m sharing these thoughts this morning because everyone has their journey. Please know that wherever YOU are on your journey is the right place for you. Keep going. Always, keep going ! It’s all good.

Crone

I’m really enjoying this stage of my life.

I have this little tiny allotment of "give a 💩" that I reserve and carefully use for situations when I choose to be nice or appropriate when it hasn’t been earned.

But other than that I just walk around being me. I keep it straightforward, simple, and honest. I set boundaries. I explain almost nothing to anyone about what I’m doing and where I’m at. My inner circle knows ❤️🌺.

My default is compassion. It takes far less energy to simply be pleasant, happy and assume good intent. If someone isn’t receiving that, they’ve gone quite a ways to earn that change. 

I still talk a lot 😆 but for me, honestly, I talk much less than in the past. Often, I choose silence. Listening is a skill I am expanding upon, and delighting in. 

I’m examining those remaining "triggers" as they appear and learning the lessons so those things can be dismissed for good. Past victories and mistakes are with me always to keep me centered. 

My body, mind and spirit let me know when something is out of balance, and I make adjustments accordingly. I have learned from experience that when I ignore these things, unpleasant things happen. 

I really can "set it and forget it" in both a mundane and a magickal sense and allow things to flow. I trust my inner knowing and my intuition. 

I am grateful for my body and mind. I am working to do things that help me to be healthy. But I do not have the expectation of looking younger than I am. I’ll be 55 in December. I embrace that. It is a gift to get to this age, one that I am grateful for. I see no reason to fight that or to take on false ideas that this is bad. It is not bad, it is wonderful! 

The way I present myself in the world every day is to please myself and no one else. I do not owe anyone a particular appearance. You may look my way, or turn away. It is all the same to me, because I delight in myself with no validation required. 

Yes. I am enjoying this stage of my life. The Crone stage. I look forward to all of the adventures on this continued journey!

Child Of The Crescent Moon

The doctor thought he himself had chosen her birthday 

After all, he did it all the time , at his convenience

Self important, his Christmas vacation at hand

Check off this birth, so he could get on the road 

But truly he was a pawn, a puzzle piece 

Someone in charge of The Rules 

Thought it was fitting 

Perhaps even funny or ironic 

To try and block the moon’s energy

From one of Sariel’s line

Except, as an agent of The Must Be

He couldn’t even allow himself the dry laughter

So, the Sunflowers laughed at his folly 

And those under the earth rolled their eyes 

Incredulous that he thought his plan could work 

She and those like her were HERE

Because that assumption was untrue  

Creation will NOT be placed into a box 

Always, endless options will push through

Like bulbs in the spring

The child, born on the sliver of the Crescent Moon 

Did not turn out too weak to push boundaries

Her natural ways confounding the status quo
Leaving a trail of bent assumptions
And altered wavelengths in her wake

Indeed, one could say

Rarely has a plan backfired 

So splendidly

The child was both light and dark 

Both human and angel 

Comfortable with the magickal and the mundane

She was Witch

A quiet knowing behind her eyes 

Many tried to define her

She defied the categories every time

A hybrid in every possible way

Managing to weave a tapestry

Somewhere between that which is immovable 

And all the things that indeed WERE moved,  at her bidding 

She was a liminal creature

The land of in-between was the source of her greatest strength

Making her stand, always on the blade's edge 

Both and neither simultaneously

It was at first exquisite pain

But in the end it was power, peace and healing

In the place where fate and destiny become one

Where Will and Surrender make love and merge

She found the place of her truth 

The Norns looked on

They had handed her a key to deep understanding

Simply by virtue of presence 

Not even the winged ones 

Have dominion over the Norns, after all 

For Her part, the Moon, in all of her ways

Quietly blessed the Crescent Moon Child
In ways unseen and unknown
As she does with all of Her Dark Children

Creation is endless, dense and fierce
Sweet scented is Her growth
Tendrils and trunks, growth in every direction
You cannot control Her
So, you'd best look to your own Work