Vampires Anonymous

'Tis a magickal thing indeed 

The journey of remembering 

Who you are 

And why you have come 

Yes, this alone 

Is your very own 

Revelation 

But there's more 

You reach the point 

Where you are able to bear witness 

To what you are 

And all that you do 

As you live each day

Finally, there comes a time 

When only the bravest openness 

And relentless authenticity 

Will do 

Yet, you see yourself 

Still seeking completion 

In others view of you

As authenticity burns away illusion 

The old vampiric ways 

Of drawing, pulling 

Using the energy and emotion of others 

To prop yourself up

Falls away 

You stand on your own. 

Oh fear! 

I'm lost. Disconnected! Empty! 

Ugly. Useless.

Can't you see!?

It isn't safe. I'm not enough!

And I never will be...

Must hide. So naked. So scared. 

Get tiny. Cover my face. 

Block my ears. No. Oh no. 

The habit, so ingrained 

Neural pathways 

Like well traveled roads in your psyche

You watch yourself 

As the fear pumps loudly in your ears

And the familiar downward spiral 

Is about to begin 

But 

No 

Something is different this time 

Oh, the habit is there, so strong 

But now, the desire, the need to walk that familiar road 

Of latch on, or hide 

Is gone 

You released it

You felt it leave you

The dark and heavy energy gone from you

And in the midst of the fear 

The inner Witness speaks 

Hey. Wait a second!

It's alright to be afraid 

Standing in your personal power 

Self contained 

Complete, beautiful 

Not seeking outside of yourself 

For validation 

Belief, faith in who and what you are

Without the crutch of others approval 

This is new 

And the fear? It's a habit. 

But it doesn't own you. 

You don't need it.

Not anymore.

Let's go. Let's walk. 

You've got this! 

That fear will get smaller over time. 

And you can rock who you are

Even if you are afraid sometimes 

Standing 

Tentative steps 

Back straightens

You stop looking down 

And bring your gaze up 

To meet the world 

See that? That's bravery. You're doing it! 

And you're not disconnected 

Not ever

Quiet your mind and see what you find

You know and feel the truth of that within 

There's a vast difference 

Between being complete in and of yourself 

And being cut off, separated from love 

Without a lifeline 

You were never alone, you know that now

Beautiful connection 

With all things 

Every person 

The world, energy 

The Divine

It's all One

We are One

Now you can enjoy that natural thread 

That connects us all 

Without needing anyone 

To prop you up 

Or tell you that you're okay 

You're free