After a while, you come to realize that your sense of values is far, far outside of where you used to be; indeed, far outside of that of many you know and love.
The things that excite you, make your heart beat faster, and your entire way of being in the world has been radically altered.
Home is something you know within you, but isn't anything you can describe very well. It has always been there, inside you, and all the times seeking it elsewhere are behind you now.
Your words and actions perplex people, but you know that you are exactly where you ought to be. You try and describe that inner compass sometimes, with mixed results.
The structures you once held dear, the common everyday safety nets that bring comfort, the methods we all use to weigh ourselves and our world - they have all fallen away. You find it difficult to articulate what has taken their place, but you find that you do know how to walk it. You always have known, really. The days of squashing down and ignoring your intuition and natural instincts are gone.
It's like the most glorious, perplexing combination of blind free fall while all at once knowing exactly what is coming - and living each moment in the certainty that it is yours. Indeed, it cannot pass you by.
It's very lonely sometimes. It's breathtakingly beautiful while being heartbreaking, too. But you can't even consider going back to sleep. It's not possible, not now, and you know that you wouldn't - even if you could. You aren't sorry to be where you are. You know who and what you are, you have a sense of why you're here. You remember. And, in truth, you are never alone.
So you trust it. You trust The Universe. You trust yourself.
And you keep walking that path.
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