My Sister Change

I am clothed in impatience 

Lusting for destruction 

Catching the rotting stench of sameness 

Slapping safety across the face when she approaches to help

I am sick of myself 

Critical of those around me 

Disgusted with all of the daily compromise 

Nauseous with the attempts we make at numbness 

Times of transition can be hard

In the past when my sister change came to visit 

I was not a gracious hostess

I fought with her 

I kept my parameters of acceptance so very narrow 

I called surrender impossible 

I tried to claim she was evil 

She is neither evil nor good 

She simply is 

And in truth my own thoughts and actions invited her to come

Whether I own that or not 

Now, I Am Fire

And I dream of burning it all down 

The purity of my heart's desires

And my soul's path

The only thing I can see

And all else has become like too much baggage

Dragged through the airport 

My sister change is visiting again 

This time I admit I eagerly invited her

She smiles at me 

She speaks of balance and deliberate, thoughtful steps 

She reminds me of all the sweet gifts 

In the garden of my everyday life

We spend time in quiet 

Contemplating the Love in all things

We talk about the keys to be found 

In walking daily with our siblings 

Especially Authenticity and Integrity 

I am a spirit of extremes 

Where my heart and soul are concerned 

My sister knows this

And with a smart-ass grin

Introduces me to our cousin, Patience

Patience has accomplished a great many things, Change explains to me

I guess I ignored her at the family reunions 

Because I honestly don't remember her at all

Change calls to the rest of the family 

To join the circle

Where she stands with Patience and I

Intent, Intuition, Action, Authenticity, Integrity and Will join us 

We hold hands around the fire 

Change looks at me across the circle 

And as our eyes meet 

I realize how much lighter I am 

Impatience, twin to Patience 

Had come for a short visit 

To remind me of the price of inaction 

A boot in the cosmic arse for motivation 

And then moved along on her way 

I silently thanked her for the help 

Realization dawned that with these allies

Every day would be an adventure 

Clear direction but surrendering the specifics 

In perfect love and perfect trust 

We sat down around the fire 

To rejoice in the day

And decide on next steps