Ugly

What does ugly mean?

Is ugly anything that's not young and smooth?

I've gained 20 pounds since the fall of 2013.

Don't medicate with food, my friends 

Very often I feel ugly

Not comfortable in my own skin

Maybe, though

Could it be possible?

That ugly is inside 

And not outside?

I wonder 

Perhaps ugly is what happens inside 

When we let fear, anger or despair win

And we lash out at each other 

Or hide 

When I do that

I know I feel ugly 

So is it a look or an action?

Is it inside or outside?

When I think about it

I feel tired and heavy 

And 

Ugly

And I want to take it all off

My body

All the crappy, nasty stuff

That we all all do to each other 

The daily fight

This false separateness

And I want to be one 

I want to take beauty, peace and joy

As my lover

I want us to wrap around each other 

And in the tender warmth of oneness 

The natural state 

Of pure love is revealed 

We are lifted, made better

Free!

And I think in this, there is no ugly 

I think that ugly 

Is something that happens to us

When we are blinded to the sheer beauty 

Within ourselves 

And in others

I think we can make this journey 

Easier or harder for one another 

We can ease or add to each other's burdens

I don't want to be ugly 

Anymore 

Or ever again 

I don't see any of you that way either 

Let's try and remember from now on

There's no ugly 

There's just

Us