Spilling Over

A heart, hardened
Creates weakness
Closed the windows
Slamming doors
Voluntary blindness
Sat in the judges seat over others
Found myself lacking
Spewing angry words
Finding that despite the sorrow
They can never be taken back
Sought protection and solace
In being hard and unfeeling
And, yet
Strength, yes
Even power
Found in being
Soft

Yes
In feeling
Everything
Openness, receptivity
Strength in what many would call "weakness"
Many things in life can take you out
Love among them, if you let it
But it doesn't have to
And denial does you no good
Eats you alive
Until there's nothing left
When you let yourself be
And face
Every Goddamned Thing
And everything that means
Including forgiveness
For yourself
And every last one of them
Accept
Even REJOICE
In who you are
No hiding
Then you're free
To love others
Exactly where they are

Free to live your life
Without fighting
No excuses
Grabbing each day
And french kissing it
Until your toes curl  

Letting life enter you 
Seeing what's good
And knowing that's for you
And then you're spilling over
So you pour it on everyone else
Because you've got it to spare!
Feels
AMAZING
But none of that can happen
Until YOU
Accept and like YOU
No one else can make you alright, you know
You do that.
It's inside you. Everything you need.
Connect.
You are worth it
Beautiful, precious
You