Real

There was a time
When I was real
No
I didn't have all the answers
But
My words
And my actions
Had no motivation
Save that of the moment
To be
To share
To smile
And, to love
Somehow, along the line
It got so much more complicated
Watching their eyes
Weighing the results
Am I OK?
Trying so hard, so hard
Body, mind and spirit
Tired and broken
In the vain effort
Getting OFF the ride now
It really doesn't matter
What anyone thinks
Or what they say
There will always be someone
To disapprove
I must be me
I must be real