Spilling Over

A heart, hardened
Creates weakness
Closed the windows
Slamming doors
Voluntary blindness
Sat in the judges seat over others
Found myself lacking
Spewing angry words
Finding that despite the sorrow
They can never be taken back
Sought protection and solace
In being hard and unfeeling
And, yet
Strength, yes
Even power
Found in being
Soft

Yes
In feeling
Everything
Openness, receptivity
Strength in what many would call "weakness"
Many things in life can take you out
Love among them, if you let it
But it doesn't have to
And denial does you no good
Eats you alive
Until there's nothing left
When you let yourself be
And face
Every Goddamned Thing
And everything that means
Including forgiveness
For yourself
And every last one of them
Accept
Even REJOICE
In who you are
No hiding
Then you're free
To love others
Exactly where they are

Free to live your life
Without fighting
No excuses
Grabbing each day
And french kissing it
Until your toes curl  

Letting life enter you 
Seeing what's good
And knowing that's for you
And then you're spilling over
So you pour it on everyone else
Because you've got it to spare!
Feels
AMAZING
But none of that can happen
Until YOU
Accept and like YOU
No one else can make you alright, you know
You do that.
It's inside you. Everything you need.
Connect.
You are worth it
Beautiful, precious
You 

Heart

In the deepest places
Within the heart
Depth beyond experience
There is a love
More profound
Than anything you thought
Was possible

Love
Beyond expectation
Devoid of need
Unwilling to judge
Fulfilled in the simple joy
Of flowing freely

Complete acceptance
Of the self
And others

Breadth and scope
Beyond comprehension
Yet inside of me
Born of connection
With All That Is
Seeing, knowing
Loving and cherishing
Each life
No matter what

Beautiful, precious
Every life
Without exception
As you are
Right now

A love of such soaring joy
Unfathomable depth
Intensity that would easily end me
But for the Help I receive

In hitting bottom
Releasing
Every
Last
Thing
Finding within
That which was never found
Without

A Beginning

Saturday morning
Cold day outside
The air smells like snow
Greeting friends online
The cat stops by
Hey! I'm here!
And I give him some attention
Family is all off
Doing their Saturday things
I'm sipping hot coffee
Munching on breakfast
And yet
There's so much more
Tomorrow
I'll walk alone through the woods
Enjoying the snowy silence
Of my holy places
Never alone
Always
Connected
All over this world
People
Some of them are OK
And some of them
They're not OK, you know
So many are cold
Hungry
Unloved
Hurt
And our Mother
We use what we need
Scarring our world
Creating a selfish today
And borrowing from tomorrow
That which we do not have
And should not want
While Mother cries
And we are fat and comfortable
Ignoring our brothers and sisters
At the cost our our own humanity
Loss of the soul
The spirit dries up
Blackened and dead
Only the shiny things
Will bring comfort
Bring me more!
Grasping for the empty things
When such treasure is all around us
There is such joy
Wisdom
If we watch
The other creatures
We share our home with
Truly we are connected with them
They have much to teach us
But we exploit them, too
Like everything else
And it seems too big
It's so much
How can we ever change it
I know some
Who tell me
Every day
In conversation
And on line
That there's nothing you can do
And to you
I say
NO
NO
NO
No. I will not believe
That I am empty
That WE are empty
Beyond hope
So lost in our pretty toys
And our comforts
That we cannot change this
We CAN change it
Do you understand
Can you see
Please, please
Take a moment
To become quiet
And KNOW
YOU
You are a part of All That Is
People
All people
Why do we judge each other?
And fear each other?
All of the living creatures
Plants
The wild places
Spend some time
With a child
In any wild place
And see it through their eyes
And be renewed
And so
Tomorrow
While I am in the woods
In the silent, snowy cathedral
Only my own footsteps making a sound
I will know this
All of this
And more
And it will seem like it can't be changed
But it is in those moments
That I know
If I change ME
It is a beginning

Cosmos In A Cubicle

Bangin' out spreadsheets and emails
Checkin' out a friend's podcast
Mind wanders
Higher
Fingers on automatic
Ticky-ticky-typie
I'm somewhere else
I can hear my friend's voice
Like background music
Is this the past
Maybe I'm in the future
I guess it's RIGHT NOW
Wow
All three are true
And I get it
No, I mean I get
IT
Everything
I can see all of it
Laughing
Crying
The worst times
And the highs
And I'm not pulled in
I'm sort of just
Watching me
My life, I mean
Like a movie
Still, with the voices
And office noises
Talking and laughing
In the background
There aren't any cliches
Explanations
Justifications
So weird
How breakthroughs happen
At the strangest
Most unexpected moments
Precipitated by
WHAT?
And I'm just ME
And it's all just one
ONE
Time is irrelevant
Just sitting here
Suddenly
With this
CONCEPT
or
UNDERSTANDING
That I'll never describe
Do I have tomorrow?
Who the fuck knows
Do you?
It doesn't matter
I'm right here
Right now
Tomorrow
I might be here
Or a new road
Will open
Energy
Does that
Everything
Just EVERYTHING
Changes
No matter how precious
Especially
If you hang on
So
Here I am
And this moment
Which is yesterday
Today
And tomorrow
All at once
I'm breathing
I think
And whatever happens
I know now
Nothing will take me down
I'll go where the energy takes me
Because it feels good
When I do that
I'm not afraid
Did you hear that?
Because I said that
And I fucking meant it
So bring it
Universe
Bring it
And you'll either break me
Or I'll change the cosmos
Either way

Let's go!