Sunday Musings

Random opinions and thoughts that flew by today.

1. Locally grown, blended and brewed tea is amazing.

2. You have to love people for where and who they are right now, not for what you want to turn them into.

3. Item #2 is really, really hard, but anything else is false.

4. Bostonians....Bay Staters in general.....we are amazingly resilient people.

5. There are a LOT of things in Pandora's Box.  Really.  A LOT.

6. EVERYONE is afraid of something, especially the ones who say they aren't.

7. Todd Kerns - amazingly talented musician, funny / quirky / interesting in interviews and blogs, and one of the sexiest men to rock guyliner that I've seen!

8. You can be COMPLETELY your freaky self when you're alone in your car, driving. Sing at the top of your lungs, say what you want, pick your nose...haha.  Really,  you see it all passing by in the next lane. Keeping in mind, they're looking at YOU, too.

9. Twitter can be like being infatuated.  At the beginning, you can't get enough of it.  Then, it fades, and you can't figure out what the hell you thought was so amazing.  

10.  Thankfully, in time, you find balance with Twitter, and if you are lucky, some amazing friends you'd never have known otherwise. That's what is so amazing, actually.

11. There is nothing like LIVE MUSIC, be it a huge concert or a small club.

12. Facing and knowing yourself, completely, without flinching.....a little every day. You're always a work in progress, which really is a rush!

13. Strength isn't about not being afraid, or being perfect.  It's about persevering and doing what you do even in the face of fear or obstacles.

14. Thinking has it's place but is highly overrated in most situations.

15. Hiding sucks.

16. Explore.  Even things that scare you.  Do something regularly that is a risk, or new,  unfamiliar.  FUN!  Being just a bit nervous or scared at something new is natural, and can be exciting! Pushing limits is good. The more time goes on, the more I am convinced of it - that comfort and complacency are the same as death.

17. Funny. You get these ideas in your head,  about how you want things to go.  Hope is just so ridiculously....is un-killable a word?.....I mean the way it just keeps coming back in the face of what should just put you in a hole that you don't come out of.  But then, you do, you're back....still hoping.  We're either the most beautiful or the stupidest creatures ever.

18.  LISTEN TO ORIGINAL MUSIC by local musicians.  They're holding up day jobs, working their asses off, writing, practicing, gigging, and then you can't be bothered when they write something new that you've never heard before.  But you'll listen to that fake, manufactured shit?  Wake the fuck up.

19. I can't live without coffee.  Or if I do, good luck to the rest of you. I'd prefer not to live without whiskey.

20. I know nothing

21.  Some people really DO have beautiful minds.

22. I need so much less than I have.  I keep getting rid of shit and it keeps.....landing.  Just drives me crazy.  Gotta look at more drastic lifestyle changes.  Get this pile of shit off me.

I'm tired.....calling it done for now.

Darkest Before The Dawn

Huddled in a corner
Curled into a tight ball
Block it out
Nowhere to go
Refuge unknown
Knowledge certain
Home undefined
Moments you need to be held
And you are the only one there
Sometimes there is pain
But eyes are clear
Heart sure
Soul, undimmed
Tomorrow, the sun will rise

No Safety Net

There's truth, you know

In the spaces between

If we aren't afraid to look 

Hope and need

Eating from the lack 

You think there's only one way

You hang on so tight 

But the letting go

That fuck-all terrifying free fall

No safety net 

That's the only way

The strength comes from inside 

Not in routine, safety, familiarity

Can't find it in the sky

And no, not in anyone's arms

Within you 

Get up and walk 

Solitary

Where is the place
Dark, warm
Hidden
Show me where to go
A place where I feel nothing
I seek not comfort
I already know that answer
Only simple blankness
Where hearts do not long for home
And souls are silent
I will crawl inside and stay
Just leave me alone

A Simple Love

It doesn't have to solve anything
There are no rules on what it has to look like
Just two souls and two bodies
Intertwined
Shelter
Abiding
Let go
And let it just be

Surrender

What is surrender
For just a heartbeat
I can stop
Stripped of all that I carry
Defenses, finally down
Bring me salvation
High on you
If you bury yourself in me
I will forget myself
Rare, sweet lightness
In giving it all
I can blessedly cease to be
Oh sweet peace

My Will

They taught me
To deny the self
They said it was for You
There's a reward!
Standing in an empty room
Silence the only reply
Soul lost
Enabling their weakness no more
I reclaim my soul, myself
My road, and my right
Truth
My will

Gauntlet

Do you think perhaps
That you will stop me?
Oh no
I am more determined than ever
No obstacle you throw
Can deter me
For I know my way
Choices, not easy
But heart and soul made
Not to be denied
You can try
Go ahead and bring it
I cannot be stopped

Triumph

This one came to me after reading about a quote Todd Kerns said, after he tripped and fell on stage.

Strength in weakness
Forever seeking something to hang on to
To catch myself
And each time
Coming out the other side
Realizing
You got through it
Another day, yours


"Trip, fall, roll, triumph"
                                    --- Todd Kerns

Rhythm

Find it
Your rhythm
That's your groove
The signs are everywhere
Dial the number
Step inside
Into the place you thought was so dark
No denying what's real, what's inside of you
That's sacred
Body moving
Occupying soul space
Time stops
Universe OWNED
Light from your fingertips
Rhythm

Free

A place you get to inside
Where no one's opinion matters
Breathing free
You live your way
Unconcerned, finally
About the questioning looks
Disapproving glances and snide comments
And yeah, maybe you're unsure of the future
Because you're naked out here
You aren't using the crutches they're all so dependent on
Gone the numbing comforts
Just out there, on your own
Rock it
Fuck it
One raw life
If you can't handle that
Then back the fuck off

Temporary Parting

Another poem from the Nashville trip.

Connections
The thread of a life
I cannot hold you now
Never a moment
When you are not in my thoughts
In my heart
And in each breath I draw
Life brings joy and heartache
We may not always understand
And we won't always agree
But always I will know
There is perhaps one thing
One beautiful thing that I got right
And that is you.

Soul Seeks Home

I wrote this one while on a trip to Nashville helping my friend Glenn move there.

Put it all on the line
Sacrifice the familiar
Flight into the unknown
Risking it all
Truth in the heart
New roads
Each dawn breaks anew
Comes the tearing
And the beauty
Soul finds home

Distractions

Distractions are easy to find
They chase away what's inside
Just for a little while
And for a short time, they work
Always, though
Comes the return
You realize, there is no running
Not really, anyway
Take it out in the sun
Sit with it
In the real
The truth lives inside
Path is clear

Price Paid (The Gift of One Soul)

Some  have paid dearly
Just to still stand here
In this day
That you take for granted
Still so many times
That are such a struggle
Falling again and again
But, they are here
Alive
The truth is bright in them
And perhaps they don't do it
The way you think they should
But if you could stop
Quit hating, cease to judge
Watch. Listen. LEARN
See them, the way I do
The gift of one soul

What Is Love

Sometimes, a sure quiet knowledge
In the deepest recesses of the soul
Other times it is huge
Endless and all encompassing
Like the sea
Often, a source of boundless energy
When it lives inside
It makes it's way to the surface
It is a balm, when there is pain and the tears come
It believes
Yes, it wears many faces
But always,  it is simple, real
It is true

No Reservations

There is freedom
In facing reality
Releasing expectations
Honoring the truth
Then, we are free to love
Without reservation

Tell Them

Take what lives inside of you
Accept it, love it
Love YOU
If it is the truth, then tell them
It doesn't matter if you're broken
And know that where you've been, what you've done
That is part of that truth
Do not hide who you are, or who you were
In your truth
How you live NOW
You are a light
Be you. Do it.
Please don't let up
Never give in
You are a gift